I have this thing where I feel I need to cram as much into my days and life as I can! I rarely stop because there's always an #adventure I need to have or something I need to see.
I don't #sleep particularly well and over the years #insomnia has become my friend. Years ago I would get increasing frustrated with my sleep pattern and lie awake for hours willing my body to sleep. Nowadays I embrace the freedom this lack of sleep gives me, and while others are sleeping in their beds I become a night ninja! I call it secret ninja mode because there's something naughty about wandering around when everyone sleeps. I think this comes from my childhood and risking a real telling off from my parents if they caught me out of my bed.
My secret ninja nights are amazing (there has to be some perks to a life of insomnia) ... on nice weather nights I've sat on mountain summits or deserted beaches. I had 2 benches built at the top of my garden last year; they're single bed sized and perfect for lying on and counting #stars. Sometimes I'll just sit and make lists of all the adventures I need to go on. Sometimes I'll study my #ordnancesurvey #map looking for new routes to try. Sometimes I'll just sit and cuddle the Beast and read a book.
I love the fact that no one knows I'm awake, no one knows that I've crept out of the house to have an adventure. I can sit and listen to nocturnal animals, the phone stays silent and stops bleeping with messages and social media notifications. The world seems to just stand still for those few hours each night when the darkness of the night becomes my #friend.
There are times when I think that maybe my body just craves the solitary feeling of being the only one awake and this is what stops me falling asleep? Whatever it is; I love these nights, I no longer get frustrated with my body and embrace the adventures I'm having while the world around me gently snores.
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